About

There are many things that can affect us in strong ways. Like love, relationships, family, society and so on. Losing any of them can change and damage us in unimaginable ways. Some may have lost a mother, a father, a husband a wife, a girlfriend, a boyfriend, a brother, a sister, a loving pet, a best friend or you could even lose yourself. With time, everything changes. Losing or winning, we change in some way. We grow bitter or hopeful, happy or sad, emerge from life triumphant or sorrowful. We become the people who we are depending on how we live our lives, and how we deal with pain.

I have lost love, family, friendship and myself. The things we lose that were once important to us, becomes our obsession. For only god knows how long.

I fail to recognise the person I have become, or have chosen to become. What is clear to me is that I have learned the ability to write and have thoughts I do not understand. Although my words may not be constructed perfectly, with a perfect range of vocabulary, I manage with what I have.

So if you are wondering what “be safe, don’t die and stay alive” is, it’s nothing. Because I do not know what it is, or more accurately, what it has become. I just write and write, hoping that one day it can become something whole, that I myself can recognise.

Weird, isn’t it?